LittleGirl

Hi, there. How are you? ^_^

First off, are you familiar with the cartoon series/ toy line "My Little Pony" at all? If so, what did you think of them?

It's nice to hear something like that from someone in my age group for once. Thank you very much.

It's not a problem to sit here and talk to you. You seem like the type of girl to be kicked when down but to just brush it off and keep trying. I know I am. You're right, society does kind of suck right now. Perfection is something that every human being strives for but cannot fully achieve. Yeah, I am trying not to be so negative anymore. I noticed that my life was kind of sucking as I gazed at the world with a sick stare and glare. I hated the feeling that everything was against me, so I dropped it and am currently working for a better perspective on life. I want this to last for me longer than it should. I want to be happy, so I am going to stop being mad all the damn time.
I have a two siblings. One little brother and one little sister that pester me to NO end. I am going crazy because I am old enough to run about with my friends, but I can't. It is nice to have a dream, but only if you really want to go with it. Thank you, by the way.
Yeah, but I might have my big break. Sadly, a teacher at my school as recently passed due to cancer, and I have been asked to commission a portrait of him. It's going to his wife, and a copy of it will stay in the school. The circumstances for which I have to do this are sad, but it might boost me through the ranks and get me recognized by SOME people.
Giving him time is all I can do. If I pester him, I will just end up pushing him away. You know, he has a lot of friends, and the other day, he was laughing with this girl that he's been friends with for a while. Well, the only thing that slightly bothered me was that he used to like this girl, but she turned him down, but they stayed friends. Hearing the two of them laugh together made me feel bad. I felt like I got in the way of something that could have gone somewhere because right after he started to have feelings for me, she decided to like him. I just saw them together and felt as though maybe I shouldn't be doing this. Then my mind reminded me that SHE turned him down. It's her fault she's not with him, not his or mine.
I know what it's like to lose a friend. I moved right before the 5th grade and lost all the friends I had gained over the 6 years at my elementary school. It was hard, and this new place was so crazy. I was lost for a while, and I still wonder what it would have been like if I would've stayed with them.
I'm glad you think my life is interesting. It seems so weirdly average to me. Nothing very special. I see what you mean about Twilight too. I loved them for a period of time. I think that the movies just sort of sucked. (Ha. Vampire Pun. My bad.)
You're welcome for the long message. I love to write, and typing as always seemed oddly fun to me. I don't know if I am "wise", but I know that I have been through enough to have some experience and advise to give. I know it's not my duty to help everybody, but I do it like it is my duty. I have taken on the role of group counselor for my weird little group of friends. They always need some sort of shoulder to cry on or some kind of secret bearer or maybe just someone to rant to. I find it nice to know that you like my internet company, however frequent it is. I figure that you will smile again once day, I just hope that I am there along the way to keep you from fully frowning too much. All life has ups and downs, that I know for sure too. It will get better for you. You have really no reason to suspect that some kind of cosmic entity is doing this. It will get better for you. You are a good person with a full life with you. The corners that you turn may seem bleak and hopeless, but you will eventually come to one with a bright enough street light to keep you happy, if only for a little while. Take any nice little thing and attempt to stretch it out as far as it can go, just as long as you know for sure that you will be happy with it.

-pokes-

It's absolutely okay. I understand. I know what's its like to be swamped with homework and stuff. Get what you need done and hit me up when you can. No pressure.

eh, no problem.

I'll tell you about the whole pony thing after your next post.

I am sure that you will be fine. You are a smart girl.
I am flattered that you think of me as a role model. I didn't think I could ever be that way for somebody. It's okay to be negative, trust me. I normally am, but I don't want to seem that way to other people. Don't get me wrong, I have total confidence in you and I am so sure that you will be okay. It's just weird because everyone I know just likes to tell me how negative I can be.
It's funny how your summer vacation starts on my birthday. Crazy. I am glad of the time we get, and I think that its silly that you only get a month. Hell, I think you might work harder than I do and you deserve more than a month of rest. I know what you mean though. I too sulk about the house in my pjs. Sometimes, I don't change the whole day if we don't go anywhere. It's always fun, and I just feel like the freedoms keep coming as the summers go by.
No, my life's not easy. Being the family the babysitter isn't too fun, and I normally can't go everywhere I wanna go. I stuck in the house with my siblings while my friends roam where they please. It kind of sucks. I don't have it made, but I have it better than a lot of people.
It's really not that big a deal with my study. It's just a passion that I wanna make money from, the american dream, I guess. Ha.
Yeah, I think he's warming up to things now, but just not as fast as I would like. I am not going to force him, you know? I am just going to give him the time he needs to wrap his head around it.
I am so sorry to hear about your relationship with your friend. That must be terrible. I don't know what I would do if that happened to me. I would more than likely be crushed inside. My friends mean a lot to me, right up there with my family actually.
I guess you could say my life is like a book. It seems all fine and dandy from someone's point of view. I never really wanted to have to deal with all this drama, but it just kind of slips in. I just hope that my book doesn't read like the Twilight series. That was just garbage.
You shouldn't feel like a loser. If that is the way you are, then just go with it. I think that the things going on in your life at the moment may make you seem like you have just a ton of negative feelings because you are weighed by all this other crap around you. You have the right to be negative. You have been through a lot lately. No one is asking you to be a ray of sunshine. If you feel as if your outlook for somethings seems dim, okay. I am not asking you to change your mind. All I am saying is that when you feel the time is right to be truly happy again is up to you. You don't have to be happy for anyone else. When you feel like cheering up, cheer up. Simple. The only thing I do suggest is to have your negative spout and be happy again. I would like to laugh and joke with you like old times. I always felt a happier vibe from you, and I know that it is there somewhere inside of you. Just look.

Sexy